I have missed blogging. Unfortunately, I have been in pain for the past year and a half. That's right, a year and a half. Hard to believe? It sure is.
And still, we don't really know what's going on or how to fix it. I've just now stumbled upon a dentist that seems competent and knows what he is talking about. He won't be available for another 6 weeks though, because he is switching offices and is in transition.
Great.
Sure, I'll wait. No problem. It's not like I want to be out of pain anytime soon. In fact, I'd prefer if I were out of pain.. say.. a year and a half ago?!
Only recently, thanks to the "new dentist" (that's what we'll call him, for now), we found out that the disc in the right side of my jaw is gone (pushed out of the socket, so to speak).
So, I went to a dentist......... a year and a half ago....... for a very small filling. I ended up having three root canals (durnig the course of this past year and a half) that I've been told, by the new dentist, probably were not needed at all.
Instead, the pain in those teeth simply transferred to other teeth.
This is because I have a bite issue, which should have been diagnosed "before any invansive measures were taken, such as root canals" (this out of the mouth of the new dentist, an occlusion specialist).
I am tired of the pain. I am tired of the fatigue that comes from the ongoing chronic pain.Hence lack of blog posts and lack of much of anything else. I feel like a turtle who has been hiding in her shell way, way, too much.
I want to pop out again and do more with my blog but I can't until a solution is found to this ongoing pain.
I can't chew because basically ALL of my bottom teeth hurt and I can't put pressure on them.
So, what do I eat?
Blended foods... lots and lots of soups. We've mastered the art of soupery.
I just want to get better and to know, really, what the problem is. Yes, I know a "bite issue" and so my jaw is not balanced and my teeth don't fit together properly. Instead, I hit on my back teeth first and basically none of my front teeth are able to come in to contact. This creates a lot of problems. But, how many dentists are out there in the world? A whole kaboodle, so surely at least ONE of them can help me.
I go from hopeful to hopeless. I am trying to be more positive so that I can push through the feelings of anger, fear, etc.
Also, I'd really like to have a permanent fix so that I can stop wearing this upper mouth splint. Or, actually... better yet... I'd like the upper mouth splint to actually *work* and relieve the pain until permanent measures can be taken. That'd be great, thanks. Put that on my tab.
I missing writing!
I miss having energy... I miss spontaniety!
I miss freelance writing work I had to stop doing because of the pain.
Blast. I miss how it feels not to be in pain.
Have you dealt with chronic pain? If so, I feel for you!
(below: a picture of a card my husband got me when I was feeling particularly down.. I photographed it paired with some carrots that a friend gave us from her garden. I love the people in my life. They give me strength).




